mental health
Clear (Walking meditation)
I tried meditation. A bunch of times. It helped, if for nothing else that for sitting sans computer in the quiet and kindness. But I couldn’t relax, couldn’t focus on meditating, focused on the noise I was making, the meditation I wasn’t doing, racing, racing thoughts.
I went for a one-on-one with the leader of the [...]
Independence is the easy part
In college, contemplating and confronting so many things at one – love, feminism, liberty, life — I began my wonderings about independence.
I wrote poetry in bluegreen notebooks:
“ Dependent, from Latin,
meaning: to hang from
So tonight I am wondering:
Do I hang from you? “
Hanging from was not a good thing, I concluded then. I [...]
Read Full Post | Make a Comment ( 2 so far )Blue
I haven’t been writing as much lately. Yes, I’ve been busy with work and work and work. Yes, I’ve been trying to learn about some other facets of the internet to grow my blog and make it better, perhaps even profitable.
But also, I’ve been blue. Deep, beautiful, aquamarine blue, in my core.
what it feels like
for girls (apologies to Christina Aguilera or whoever sings that song). Besides maybe it feels like this for boys too. And of course, really I can only approximate what it felt like as a girl, so really it’s as a woman that I can write about best. But I digress.
What does it feel like?
No, like [...]
Read Full Post | Make a Comment ( None so far )Involuntarily Intoxicated
“We’ve got 12-year-old kids, we give them pills and say, ‘Here, take this,’ as if they had some choice to disobey,” Mr. [Andy] Vickery [a defense attorney] said. “And we know it’s a mind-altering pill. What in the name of God are we doing to our children?”
from “Boy Who Took Antidepressants Is Convicted in Killings”
By [...]
Valentines’ Day
From the windows of the car, the slush and rain reflects gray back to me, to the world and back again. I have behaved so poorly. Outrageously, even my therapist agrees. “Why are feelings so important?” she asks me. What else is, I wonder.
I try to stamp down, shut out the pervasive green sea-monster that [...]
